Dear Dreams,
(Wow. Now this feels silly...) Not the sleepy time dreams, the hopes and aspirations kind... I knew I had to write a letter to you today so I spent some time while driving thinking of just what I wanted to say.
When I was a little girl, I dreamed of being an archaeologist, a ballerina, the President... I dreamed of having a two-story home with a garage and a door bell. I dreamed of being beautiful and having everyone love me. Now that I am a grown up, I've realized some of these dreams. Obviously, I am not an archaeologist, nor a ballerina, nor the President. I was able to study History, one of my passions, in college though. Digging in the dirt just really isn't my thing. I was able to dance in front of others (not the pole kind of dancing either!) Some of my fondest memories of high school are of dancing and all the hard work and sacrifice it took. I also am certain now that I do NOT want to be the President.
I've lived in a two-story home (and frankly, I don't like them) and I now have a garage and a door bell. It's funny the things that matter to a child. I think I just wanted a house like everyone else's. I didn't want to be poor and different. As for being beautiful, I have accepted I will never be a supermodel. There are parts of me I love and parts I want to improve on. I have a healthier self-image than I think I ever have, even when I was tiny. Oh the irony, huh? I've also realized that I can't make everyone love me and I don't need everyone to anyway. I have surrounded myself with the right people who love me just for who I am. In this case, quality will always win over quantity. Most importantly, I am now in a place where I love who I am.
My dreams now are very different. I just want to be happy - and I am - and be in love with someone wonderful who takes care of me - and I am. The dream I haven't fulfilled is the best one yet, though. I want to be a mommy and one day I know I will be. I find myself daydreaming about what it will be like and the things I will teach my children... I can not wait for the day when my dream finally comes true!
-Charity
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